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today sucked

So, I'm having problems with a guy. Two guys actually. I can't get one off me, and I can't get the other off me either. Both of them are just as annoying as hell. This is a sad story because I needed to let one of them go. I didn't know what else to do. What should I do?

Today, was just like any other day but for the first time, I woke up at 2 am and found myself reading the most aggressive comment written by "MY BEST FRIEND". I hope it's not Jan, because she's the only one who trusts me with the truth. I just hope that it wasn't her. 

I've been trying to convince myself that I deserved all the hatred coming my way, but I just can't bring myself to accept it. Purely because I wasn't the one to blame. If that Pete hadn't broken up with Jan, then it wouldn't have been such a big deal. How can someone blame me for something I had not done?

Firstly, I had never stolen anyone's boyfriend, and I don't even like Pete. And now, all they think of me is just some slut who doesn't have anything to do apart from fucking around with unavailable guys. All I really need is a chance to show that that isn't me. Because that isn't me. All I can do now is wait, because I believe that time heals. I believe in a lot of things. I used to anyways.

They told me to stop acting innocent. stop acting innocent, i told myself. But what was I supposed to do? If they could just tell me what I'm supposed to do would somehow help me a lot. Maybe they want me to show my true colors. but, the problem is, this is my true color. How could I make it up to them? I have no idea. 

today is a school day, and i couldn't feel any luckier to come to school after a long never ending weekend where i suffered through hatred and quite a lot of bitching. now im so banned from freshmen group and,, a bf-stealer? moi? oh come on,, i didn't even do anything and it wasn't even a big deal, i had  no idea what was going on when they called me a drama queen, a bitch, a slut and shit. wtf did i do to deserve of this????? i mean, come on, i didn't even do anything.
it's a tough life but at least, gimme a break. the last thing i need is chaos.

 

edit @ 1 Feb 2010 10:49:51 by ANOREXIC BITCH :']

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